Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Ephesians 1:17-19



Ephesians 1:17-19 ~That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power...


Stephan has been gone since last Wednesday. We've only talked to him a few times and seen him twice. Today is "Tuesday"... and he came home at 1:00 this morning! If it were not for the wires on his teeth and the worry that causes us, I'm not sure that Richard would have let him in. We love him so much, but we don't want to enable! We don't give him money, his car has been parked in our garage for months... we do feed him, clothe him, and give him a safe place to stay when he does comes home. I told someone the other day that there is no possible way to keep him here unless you duck tape his hands and feet together and lock him up somewhere! He runs away... There is no convincing him to do the right thing! This.. is the life of an addict!

Last night, he walked in.... and.... he- had- cut- the- wires -OFF -of -his teeth!!! We were supposed to get them off Feb. 6th! I just covered my face with my hands in pure shock saying, "oh, my gosh, oh my gosh! I remember breathing through my fingers!
(For anyone reading this, not understanding what I'm talking about, you'll have to go back a few posts to where Stephan's jaw was broken in four places and he had to have his teeth wired shut.)

I had to let that sink in! ....Dr. D had already told us that when someone walks in to have the wires removed and they have already "been" removed, he sends them on their way kicking their backside on their way out the door and tells them to take it up with God! All I said to Richard when I gained my composure was that I was NOT taking him back to Dr. D alone! You see, Stephan has to have surgery to have screws removed from his head! This is what the wires were attached too! I guess, by law, Dr. D will have to remove the screws!
Oh, I am still in shock I think!!!!!

My prayer for Stephan today is the above verse.... I have prayed for God to give my children wisdom and knowledge since they were babies. The Bible says to ask for it and it will be given to you! I also believe that Stephan is the one who needs to ask at this point. I understand that if he does, and I hope it's one day soon that his eyes will be opened and he will understand the hope of his calling. I've always told Stephan that God has got mighty plans for his life! I told him that I feel like Satan knows this too, which is why he tries so hard to prevent God's plan from unfolding! I hope that one day soon, Stephan will open his heart to God and let Him begin a good work in him! When that happens, Stephan will experience God's magnificent power like never before!

I'm just gonna keep on praying...

2 comments:

  1. Your comments speak to me in many ways. My husband and I are also dealing with our son who is a drug addict. Been going on for at least 2 years that we know of. We are dealing with some court issues with him and are in the process of asking him to leave our home. We can't continue living in fear in our own home. Two weeks ago we had the drug dealers calling our home for him.
    I feel like we are all alone...our family and friends have no idea what hell we are living. We have been going to Celebrate Recovery at our church and getting support there.
    My prayers are with you and your family and that your son will trust in God soon. Blessings

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  2. Oh Hope, My heart goes out to you and your husband in so many ways. As I read your comment, I can sincerely relate. We are heading into court issues as well with Stephan's broken jaw. Sometimes we fear if someone may try and seek revenge on us and drive by our house! It's such a scary place to be! You are right... you can't continue to live in fear in your own home. I know you love your son so much... and I know how much this hurts! Our families had no idea about what we were going through for about two years. It's something you hope will pass, so that it will never "have" to be mentioned. I know for me, I didn't want to cause my family to have resentful feelings toward him or anything. You may feel the same way... The "hell" you live in.. truly does seem like "Hell!" I'm so glad you are seeking support through Celebrate! You need to talk to someone you can trust. You are not alone. Now I know that I am not either : ) Thank you for your comment!! I will pray for you and your family as you walk this difficult journey. I hope that your son will also place his trust back into God very soon. God Bless you guys.... (Hug)

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